How can i find an alternative to self-harm?

For a year and a half now i have been suffering from depression and anxiety. i am 15 and have been seeing a councillor for 3 months now. only 2 weeks ago did i admit to her my intense cutting problem. i want change and have been trying to stop. but tonight i had a mive breakdown for no reason and just cut. it wasn't as bad as i usual did, but it became too hard to resist. it is an addiction. i don't want to stop but i need to. according to my councillor i am lucky to still be alive seeing what i have done to my arms. to try and curb my habit i pressed a hot lighter to my arm which distracted me from my need but it wasn't enough tonight. i am desperate for a solution. my councillor is against giving me anti-depressants but i need something to cope.